My boss was "let go" yesterday, and I'm pretty much at loose ends. My contract ends on Friday anyway. I know nothing about her termination, but it leaves me feeling that I am not as incompetent as I'd feared at what I do. I still need to figure out if this is what I want to do, *as well as* if I can make any money at it. Which, let's face it, when you've been unemployed for 14 of the last 15 months can look like a pretty steep hill to climb. It can start looking like a change is due. Who knows? At least I have been able to land *one* gig in the past year in my chosen field. And the ink is barely dry on my degree yet. So maybe I'll have better luck going forward.
I'm still taking this as a sign I need to reevaluate everything in my life. I need to take a step back and check my course. I'm a different person than I was even a year ago, and my priorities have changed. But that doesn't mean they won't change again, and in completely unpredictable ways. The best that I can do right now is make decisions with the information I have. But that means I have to take stock periodically. Not so often that I get bogged down with it, but often enough that I stay on course (even if the course changes).
That entry is still coming, but this is not it. It's probably going to be a series of entries, each on a different sphere, and it's probably going to consume my whole weekend. But oh man, is it ever going to feel gooood. I'm going to breathe deep and exhale a bit of my soul. And once it's out there, it's out there for good. It becomes part of the air we breathe.