My lips were moving as I spoke to myself: "So the secret is that there is no secret. The tipping point is realizing there is no tipping point. The answer is that it's not one choice you make, but many. It's not any one thing you do, but everything you do." And I smiled. It's a conclusion I've reached many times before. To what end? What have I accomplished? Nothing. That's not entirely true. I am who you see before you (metaphorically in this internet context, but imagine I'm sitting on your desk with your computer, or your lap if you have a laptop, HEY NOW! What's happenin, sailor?). It's a conclusion I've reached many times before, yes, but by its very definition, it's one that I must keep reaching.
"To say yes to one instant is to say yes to all of existence." True, but only if you accept that each single instant in your life is the only moment there ever is, the Holy Moment. The Nietzschean Eternal Recurrence.
I take my comfort in that every single one of you is wrestling with this same thing every moment of your lives. Every single human being is, even my heroes.
I conclude, as I've done many times in the past, with the final lines of "The Art of Life", as adapted from the Teachings of Don Juan:
"The Art of Life is
without rushing, without faltering
unravelling the secrets of knowledge.
We must challenge and defeat our four natural enemies:
Fear, Clarity, Power, and the Desire to Rest."
Without rushing, without faltering. discipline, discipline.