I view it as an honor. I really do. I almost cried, twice. I'm almost crying now.
I want more best friends. I want to know more people. I want to find the people who will talk to me about toes and cloud shapes and the sound of breaking glass as used in YYZ.
I'm now a verified member of paypal, with no sending limit. That's kind of like being a best friend. "We trust you a lot, and you trust us." Except there's love between friends. I love.
I want to share hugs with someone, though. With no talk of perfect and parents and committments and distance. I want to lay in the grass and blow bubbles, toes curling into the spongy earth. And I want someone to try to catch those bubbles. Not to try to catch me.
"You sometimes drive me crazy, but I worry about you."