February 17th, 2001


I got this out of a Shadowrun book vinz_klortho lent me. I think it pretty much sums up the male mindset about commitment.

"I knew I loved Lynn and I hoped she felt the same way about me. I had never fallen so hard for a woman, nor had I ever lasted as long with one. Most women decided I was trouble and gave me walking papers before things got serious. Getting rejected did hurt, but we usually managed to part on friendly terms, which helped take a lot of the sting out of it. Besides, plenty of other women were willing to offer me solace, so I learned to live within the myth that someday I'd find the woman meant for me.
"Now that day had dawned and I found it more terrifying than all the gun battles I'd lived through. In those instances the worst that could happen was that I could die. In this situation, I could end up living. I'd have responsibilities and obligations. While Lynn was more than worth all that, a huge chunk of me saw my window to freedom snapping shut.
"Enter Selene. She and Lynn were of the same species and gender, but the similarities ended there. Selene was very attractive and aggressive. Being persued by someone so powerful and desirable was one hell of an ego-steroid. I was staring ata future imprisoned with one woman, and Selene was handing me a 'Get out of Jail Free' card."
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You know I write haiku (http://www.platypus.org/cgi/athb2.cgi), right?

Here are some old haiku I wrote for about someone back in the day. Yes, it's melodramatic; it's fucking poetry!

The love of my life
A woman so fair and true
She sneezes. Bless her.
* * *
Her smile like the sun
I'm always amazed anew
that I make her laugh
* * *
I am overcome.
How is measured her beauty?
She knows I exist...
* * *
Soothed by thoughts of her
She dances upon my mind
And my memory...
* * *
The girl of my dreams
Separated by a summer
I long for August
* * *
Question: Why is it
that I never realize
Love until too late?
* * *
I have been waiting
Eighteen months for this girl, so
what's another three?
* * *
The flame of my heart
I need it to keep me warm
My life beats wildly
* * *
Is it really her?
In love with a state of mind.
I should get out more.
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"Dark, you're a Chihuahua!"

No bones about it, you're an energetic, devoted Chihuahua. For your breed, size definitely doesn't matter. After all, sometimes the best things (diamonds, car keys, Godiva truffles) come in small packages. Honest and straightforward, you're never afraid to speak up for what you believe in, especially if it's a cause near and dear to your heart. Having such a passionate personality can come with a few drawbacks, though. You can be moody at times, and people often find it hard to live up to your high standards. But once you make a friend, it's for life. Saucy and intense, your energy and unfailing loyalty make you a great companion. Woof!

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