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| Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 |
21.22 - It is decided.
Ok, so I'm going to the December "Recognition Event" at Cornell. Details are here. There's no limit on how many guests I can have, so let me know if you're interested!
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| Thursday, November 19th, 2009 |
10.21 - Not quite a nightmare
I dreamt I was in a zombie apocalypse. And within the dream, I had a weird sort of deja-vu. It was as if I was in a movie I'd seen before. And almost methodically, I played through all the various scenarios; I guess kind of like playing the movie forward and seeing what happens to all of the main characters, with myself in the role. And as is typical with these sorts of movies, none of them were good. So rather than rushing to the rescue as I felt I was meant to do, I just walked away from the scene of the outbreak and went home. I was living upstairs from a restaurant, so I figured I had access to some amount of food. And I just decided to make the most of the rest of my life, however short, by doing things I'd planned to do (like finally writing a novel) and just having as good a time as possible with what was available to me.
Later, I tuned into a news broadcast and found out that there was a sort of cure being rolled out, and that things were returning to normal. But I'd already sort of planned what I wanted to do, which included some travel and now that it was safe to do so, I decided to visit some friends on the far side of the world, visit Tibet, etc. Real spiritual journey stuff. On the airfield, one of the passengers had a kid snatched by a zombie. So they were still out there, but it was kind of controlled. It was sort of like chancing a bear attack by going to the woods.
The central theme of the dream requires some thought, though. I usually argue against the sort of philosophy that one should sit back and let better, more qualified people fix things. At times, I feel like apathy is a kind of cancer, especially in a country built upon democracy. But I guess at other times, it just doesn't make sense to get involved. Sometimes things do just work themselves out. I know I have some pretty obvious control issues, and it was interesting to see these play out on the dream stage.
But I think the real message from me to me was that when the world is burning down around you, you might as well dance, because hey, why not? Personally, I plan to go out on a high note.
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| Tuesday, November 17th, 2009 |
14.14 - moarNell
Of course, right after I got through with all of that other Cornell nonsense, I got an e-mail re: Commencement. Seems like they were having trouble finding me because their e-mails (to my Cornell addy) bounced. Duh. But you know, I'm not a current student so I have no right or need to access my e-mail or whatever. Thankfully, they found someone in A&S with my current gmail address. Cause, you know, when I asked A&S if there was anything else I needed to do or anyone I needed to contact (specifically reminding them that this was a special case), they were like, no it's all automatic. Whatev.
So I called them and turns out I can walk in Dec. if I want. Assuming I start work this week, it'll be right after my contract ends. It might be nice to take a road trip to Ithaca. Have to talk to Becca and my mother as to whether they have any interest in seeing me strut. It's right before Christmas, so who knows. Sadly, it feels like most of the folks who would have an interest in seeing me graduate officially are dead (Dad, Grandma, and more!) but we'll see.
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12.35 - It never ends...
There are a few things which are still tied to my cornell.edu account. eBay, facebook (remember when you had to have an .edu address?). Graduates of Cornell are supposed to get lifetime use of that address, even if just for forwarding. So hey, I'm about to graduate, right? It should be simple to get the addy reinstated, right?
Called CIT. CIT says call the registrar. Registrar says, "I dunno, speak to this other person at the registrar." "Can you transfer me?" "Uh, sure." Other registrar person wants nothing to do with me, as I'm not currently enrolled. "Contact alumni affairs." "Got a phone number?" "Nope, just an e-mail address."
So I e-mailed alumni affairs. We'll see what they can't do to help me (IF they even reply). Meanwhile, I feel like there's somebody along the line who could have just flipped the account activation switch and been like, "Hey, man, you've suffered enough at the hands of the university. Let's not make this a huge problem because it totally doesn't need to be."
Meanwhile, that job I was supposed to start Monday? Still waiting on the background check. Since my last bank closed/was absorbed, they couldn't verify my employment there. Tried boss's old cel#. Tried BoA's employment verification line. Today's tactic was finding my W-2 (yeah, it's my own fault it was so hard to find it), scanning it, and e-mailing it to the hiring firm. Fingers crossed on that one.
I think I need a nap.
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12.20 - #NUMB3RS
Numbers explains IRC. lolz
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| Tuesday, November 10th, 2009 |
15.19 - So...
I got a job. It's a 1-month contract. But it comes just as my unemployment benefits were scheduled to run out. Were scheduled, because another extension was just passed. So if I don't have something long-term lined up by the end of this next contract, I have something to fall back on.
And, of course, when I finally have an entry to make, lj goes down. So this is all you get for now. Toodle-oo!
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| Wednesday, September 30th, 2009 |
14.07 - Wagon Fail
Is is distressing how invisible my tiny white car is. Complicating matters is the fact that the horn is almost non-existent. Thus have I named the car "Squeakachu" because of the squeaky horn and the fact that it resembles a little white mouse. But since the car seems to suggest to other drivers that it violates the Pauli Exclusion Principle so go ahead and occupy the same space-time coordinates as me, I may need to beef it up into the Mouse that Roars. Or something.
I gave Rich his plates back today at lunch. This left me a stone's throw away from the hotdog wagon near tckma's place. Since I never made it during their operating hours and have found that wagon-based food is usually better than expected, I stopped by. I was underwhelmed. The dogs looked like regular ol' out of the package hot dogs, and the bag of chips was maybe 30% full (though that may be true for all bags of Wachusett chips). It was only $6 (I got chili dogs), but it was $6 for $4 worth of food. So I'm glad I never made a larger detour to stop by during their narrow operating hours, and I never need go again.
mood: hot latitudes, cool attitudes music: The B-52s - Girl from Ipanema Goes to Greenland 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Monday, September 28th, 2009 |
13.26 - Things to do.
In no particular order, I need to:
1. Finish coding project (though bigmusic is strangely silent)
2. Get volta's bike ready for him to ride it home
3. Get car inspected (oh yeah, I have a car) and oil changed
4. Put COBRA check in the mail
5. Pick up dry cleaning
6. Get bike to Crash's place in Acton (somehow, despite lacking my left footpeg) at a mutually amenable time so we can fix it
7. Apply for more jobs, and contact Cornell's career counseling center for any possible assistance 8. Get Rich his plates back, pick up spare key 9. E-mail Dean at Cornell, tell him my grades are in and ask what if anything I need to do to graduate
As plodding and as much of a hair-pulling experience as it's been, I'm going to miss the coding project when it's done. I will definitely need to figure out how to get more little (i.e., low-stress) side projects for pay in the future. The puzzle-solving aspect is definitely my favorite part. Will also have to work my way into an open source project, one where I can do both coding and documentation. Also, like, do my own projects and junk.
To that end, I want to: A. Set up Ubuntu on the Dell laptop B. Re-do How to Think Like a Computer Scientist: Learning with Python since it looks like a new edition with better examples.
Oh, and I'm totally driving down to NYC this weekend. Ping me!
mood: always in motion. always. 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Wednesday, September 16th, 2009 |
17.14 - So fucking fucked
So when stupid chick swerved left then turned right in front of me in April, all without signaling? Took off my left footpeg. Bike shop who repaired it didn't realize the aftermarket centerstand I'd installed required longer bolts. So I was riding around on one long bolt and one short bolt. Couple of weeks back, the long bolt gave out (and short bolt wasn't doing crap) so footpeg came off. Tried to make temp fix permanent today, and I think somewhere between the accident and my inexperienced monkeywrenching, the sockets for those bolts got stripped. So the bolts won't stay in now. And it's in the frame, so I'm guessing it's going to be a bitch to fix.
Still no job. Still no money. Probably can't afford to fix this. Can't afford a car (unless I don't pay already overdue medical bills from my surgery). Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
mood: see subject music: fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck 4 voices - [mouth|ears]
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17.09 - for blackacre
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK
FUCK.
FUCK!
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| Thursday, September 3rd, 2009 |
12.00 - Macsimilation
Okay, so I have a macbook now. librarian's old macbook, to be precise. I asked for free software recommendations here. Feel free to add anything to the discussion that you'd like.
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| Monday, August 31st, 2009 |
11.35 - Bastardized remakes
Someone should do a remake of the Final Destination movies where instead of just panicking about their imminent death, the characters meditate on their mortality. By realizing the temporality of their existence, they come to the realization that the dwindling amount of time they have left only increases the preciousness of their lives. Rather than wasting what time they have left shopping, swimming, or attending car races, the various characters dedicate themselves to volunteering, mending fences, or risking it all to live out their dreams.
Most Hollywood movies fall apart when you let go of fear.
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| Wednesday, August 26th, 2009 |
15.09 - Healthcare Debate
You may have seen this already, but it sums up the healthcare debate in a nutshell.
So yesterday morning at around 4am, I submitted the portfolio for my last class at Cornell. Assuming my grades are up to par, I will soon be a graduate. Only took me 8 years longer than expected. Not bad, considering it took my dad 25. Last night, Becca and I went out to dinner, and I decided to celebrate. I stopped on my way to meet her and picked up some birthday candles and a lighter at CVS. I snuck away at the restaurant and asked the waitress to "surprise" me with a cupcake from their bakery with a candle in it. When it arrived after we had finished our food, Becca was totally confused, which confused the waitress who thought that maybe I had been lying that it was for me and it was really for Becca. Which made it doubly hilarious. Ain't I a stinker?
Of course, when I picked up the candles, I was in a hurry, so I didn't notice I'd picked up the re-lighting candles. I didn't even know CVS stocked trick candles. The thought never crossed my mind. So yeah, I totally trick-candled myself. Triply hilarious.
I'm still looking for a job. Or for people to paypal me money. I figure 3,000 heeeeeelarious livejournal entries is worth something, right? Right?
Guys? Where are you going? Guys?
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| Friday, August 21st, 2009 |
18.16 - Japanese Dreams
I dreamt I was in Japan. There were a number of students who were struggling to finish the same portfolio I need to turn in next Monday. We got on a train in Tokyo that was supposed to take us to a study retreat where we'd be able to complete our papers in quietude. Due to a misunderstanding/translation error regarding the roof the roof the roof being on fire, the train was reversed back to the station. So a few of us who could ride got ahold of motorcycles that we were supposed to take to the retreat. The guy who was leading our ride caught wind of a party, though, and so we ended up at this multilevel loft. It was pretty humid, but we saw there was a kiddie pool on the top level. And who was in the pool? Bill Clinton. And yeah, he was really that cool.
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| Tuesday, August 11th, 2009 |
21.27 - Death Please
I don't know about you, but if my death could save the lives of five people, I'd give it serious consideration. It's not like I'm doing much with my life anyway. It's a free country, and you're entitled to your viewpoint, but I find it difficult to reconcile Christianity, which is built around the sacrifice of one man's life, with fear mongering about death panels. Self-proclaimed Christians should welcome the chance to sacrifice for their fellow man.
mood: cake or death? music: Asia - Heat of the Moment 2 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Wednesday, August 5th, 2009 |
23.42 - Putting my game face on
2 papers entered! 1 paper left!
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| Monday, August 3rd, 2009 |
11.40 - and maybe someday we can look back and lulz
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Friend Zone Graph
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http://www.encyclopediadramatica.com/Friend_Zone
P.S. Comment to this thread and I will post a SCREENED REPLY letting you know where on the graph you fall.
ETA: Here is my wangsty "first journal entry" complaining about the great problem of "Just Friends." Loopdy, this is pertinent to our recent Vanessa conversation, in that she was the current object of my affections at the time. Behold the whinery!
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| Saturday, August 1st, 2009 |
19.56 - The continuing adventures.
My surgery was June 29th. I haven't ridden my motorcycle since the last sunny day before that one. I anticipated there might be some problems with getting it started, but nothing like this.
Yesterday, the plan was to ride out to Moto Market in Acton to visit lionstar. She's covering the store while the owner is (supposed to be!) on vacation. I was going to work on one of the last two papers I need to finish in order to complete my Cornell degree (really for real this time, they have assured me). Problem? Bike won't start. Okay, it's been sitting. First, check the battery. Well, my plans to jump the bike were ruined by the rain (maybe it's perfectly safe to jump a battery in the rain, but I wasn't about to risk it). I also checked the tank and noticed it was a bit low on gas. So I took Becca's car and got fresh gas while the battery was charging. I added the fresh gas, some Seafoam and Techron, and let it sit overnight.
This morning, I had a freshly charged battery. Connected that to the bike, tried starting it, no good. Called motomuffin. She suggested I pull my air filter. Did. Still nothing. Called milktree. Like Kate, he thought the carbs might be bunged, but I had just had them cleaned right before my surgery. He suggested draining the carb (probably flooded). Bike started, but wouldn't run with even an ounce of throttle. He suggested running the engine with the petcock OFF til the old gas was out of the system, then try it with the petcock set to ON (so it would pull fresher gas than the reserve). Turns out my bike can run for a really long time with the petcock off. Or maybe that's related to what's wrong with the bike. Either way, the bike overheated. Radiator fluid coming out from various places, steam rising off the bike. I was on the left side of the bike, so I turned the key off first (HOT) then hit the kill switch. I let the bike cool down.
So while the bike was cooling, I cleaned up the antifreeze that had boiled over. Once the fan had cut out and the bike stopped smoking, I decided to check the tank to make sure the gas was not draining despite the petcock being OFF. But there was a hissing noise. The radiator, right? No.
Picture a geyser, at least double my height (over a dozen feet) of gasoline. Hot gasoline. Rocketing straight upwards as if it were being sprayed from a firehose. I ran as fast as I could, averting my eyes. The gas came sheeting down, in a wide enough circle that Becca's Scion was completely within the blast radius. I couldn't outrun it. Fortunately, I had the pitcher of ice water I had been drinking from in my hand. I popped open the top and doused my head. My face and neck were feeling hot (though more like a chemical burn than hot burn, if that makes sense). I doused myself with the last of the water and ran inside.
Figuring water and gas immiscible, I ran into the bathroom and grabbed a handful of liquid soap. I soaked my head in the shower (thinking of Dr. Roberts and the high school chem lab the whole time), then lathered up my face and neck in an attempt to get the (still burning) gas off of me. Rinsed once, realized I still had my shirt on, whipped my shirt off, and washed myself with soap again. Fun times. I'm starting to feel better by then, but who knows, with adrenaline and stuff. I figure I'll end up somewhere between mild sunburn and 1st degree at worst.
The landlord took his hose back last summer, so I had to borrow the neighbors. I washed off the driveway best I could, then hosed down Becca's car. At that point, I turned to her and said: "Becca, I'm *that* neighbor."
mood: never, never boring music: Duran Duran - Ordinary World 16 voices - [mouth|ears]
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09.36 - Wait, what?
Huh? When did August happen?
mood: i wanna go back to sleep music: Genesis - Anything She Does 4 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Sunday, July 26th, 2009 |
16.59 - Well past 3,000 livejournal entries by now
If I were going to be a Spanish Language Superhero, I would be El Mismo, which means "the same." My power would be that I would be perfectly matched with whoever I was battling, making me impossible to beat by conventional means.
It just rolls off the tongue.
mood: should be reading music: Heart - Little Queen (LP) 6 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Thursday, July 23rd, 2009 |
20.56 - Ugh.
I'm way too old to be this emo. I feel like that Sarah MacLachlan song lyric about the "beautiful, fucked-up man." Only without the beautiful. And more of a man-child, really.
mood: keanu (whoa is me) music: Genesis - Duke (all of it, sucka) 13 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Saturday, July 18th, 2009 |
13.18 - Trying something out
LP TV. Let me know if you can see and hear what I'm playing.
Ideally, you'd be able to watch the vinyl spinning. Maybe another day.
UPDATE 13:30 - Ok, so it crashed. Trying to resurrect now.
UPDATE 13:37 - Ok, should be back.
Ok, that's enough for now, I think. Thanks!
mood: dream into action music: spin the black circle [mouth|ears]
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| Thursday, July 16th, 2009 |
14.54 - Re: Today pt. II
Ok, so maybe not. But I fuckin' needed that nap, holy crap.
[mouth|ears]
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11.22 - Re: Today
Yeah, it's okay. I think I got this.
mood: he's a sly one, he's a shy one music: Wouldn't you be, too? 2 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Saturday, July 11th, 2009 |
11.01 - Oh hai frankenarm

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| Friday, July 10th, 2009 |
10.01 - I'm no twit
Having used twitter for a full week now, I can safely say I'm not that impressed. I prefer LJ, but maybe that's just because I'm a verbose SoB. Scrolls by too fast, nothing feels permanent. Maybe that's alright for inconsequential stuff, but I like to at least pretend some of my stuff has import.
Meanwhile, I'm out of my splint but my stitches are staying in another week. The wound is not quite healed, so I have to be careful washing it and such. The doc also says he wants me to hold of on riding my motorcycle for another 2-3 weeks.
Meanwhile, I got like 3 hours of sleep last night. I was having one of those nights where I was just feeling overstimulated. I wanted to bury myself in a pillow fort and shut off my brain. I was too hot AND too cold, sensitive to the touch, and needed something to occupy my brain but couldn't sit through anything on TV (let alone read). Still, I have some schoolwork to do, and another job opening to reply to, so I know I'll be working on those later. Right now, I'm just trying to get used to having two arms again.
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03.30 - Like a broken record, a broken arm
In other news, only 5 hours til I supposedly get this splint off my arm. My right hand got a little wet in Tuesday's rain and ALL THE DEAD SKIN FLAKED OFF EW EWW ICKY EWW. Not eager to see what my arm looks like under the bandages. Will probably have to scrub it with a brush after my first shower with an unbagged arm in 2 weeks.
On the plus side, I should be able to ride my motorcycle again (will have to check with the Dr.). On the down side, I don't think I'll be doing this year's MMT, because if my bike goes down off the beaten path somewhere and I don't have cell signal, I doubt I'll be able to pick it up using only one arm (still not supposed to bear any weight with my right for several weeks).
mood: still missing the moon music: Season to Risk - Broken Arm (also in my head) 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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02.01 - Low g-Man
I just woke up from the most awesomely realistic dream. I was a NASA employee, living and working on the moon in the early days of civilian colonization. There was only one city (domed, for your breathing convenience) with a smattering of businesses like you might expect in any modern frontier town. There was a gas station with convenience store, where the price of gas was a low, low $3.45/gallon thanks to government subsidy (the real cost of fuel would have been so exorbitant as to prohibit colonization, so it was incentivized).
We were stationed at the base, going over map and survey data, when the call came in. I think it was actually skreidle who gave me and my boss/mission commander the news. They'd found what could be best described as a cave on the surface of the moon, about an hour and a half's moon buggy ride away. It seemed by all appearances to be natural, which was odd, because to my knowledge caves are usually the result of erosion by the kind of natural forces which are absent on the moon. So my commander and I started planning to get out there ASAP. There was no decision; it was a foregone conclusion that we'd go see it in person. At least, that my boss would, since he was the commander. And since regs said no one goes out alone, I'd be going with him.
Here's where some of the most interesting (to me) elements of the realism came in. We had to figure out how much air and fuel we needed to get there. This meant calculating our route. And since we would be traveling on the on the surface, we had to examine topographical maps of all the territory between us and the site. Since it was in a pretty craterous area outside the mare or plain the colony was on, it turned out that the safest and most passable route was basically to travel due north and then dogleg east in an L shape. I was very acutely aware that if we'd just assumed a straight vector to the site we'd not only have run out of fuel and been stranded but also run out of air pretty quickly. It'd be nice just to take as much as possible at all times, but budget constraints and other practical matters limited that. For example, the more food and fuel you take with you, the worse your mileage. We were also limited on how much air we could carry in our tanks, and extra tanks were pretty heavy. So it was all about efficiency, and there was a certain finality about our calculations. We would live and die by the strength of our estimates. There was no protocol to follow; we were the first explorers. We were making the protocol.
I'd only been stationed there for a few short weeks. I remembered my transit to the moon. The in-flight entertainment was a worn and glitchy old copy of 2001: A Space Odyssey. I'd suggested, half jokingly, that they get a copy of that new movie... what was it... Moon? if it was out on DVD yet, but this was poorly received by my superiors. No, 2001, this beat-up old copy of it, was the tradition, and so it would stay. That aside, I'd integrated pretty well with the rest of the crew (important when stationed in a remote location with a small group). But I definitely remember being the junior man there, out of what I think was 8 low g-men. 2 were asleep, and would stay behind while the station ran itself, and the other four were at the cave site. I definitely felt pangs of jealousy at not having discovered the cave myself, but these were eclipsed by the shadow of the massive amount of work needed to prepare for our trip.
So now came the fun (and less realistic) part. I recall visualizing a two-man rover before some part of my brain went: MOON + DUNE BUGGIES = MOON BUGGIES! Soon, we were suited up and in these two little vehicles that resembled extreme offroad versions of shifter karts more than anything else. Small, maneuverable, and fast. The gas station was across from our building, so we pulled out, zipped across the main road dodging between the normal-sized traffic (incl. in my case an angry 18-wheeler as I struggled to keep up with my maniac hooligan boss who may or may not have resembled volta), and pulled in for the fuel stop. After we'd fueled up, we hit the convenience store and supplemented our rations with some energy bars (pretty much all you could get on the moon aside from freeze-dried meals due to the prohibitive cost of shipping fresh foods) and then set out, with our pedals to the metal, racing headlong towards the wall of the dome where the road ended and our adventure would begin.
Sadly, this is where I woke up. I feel like a tourist who says, "The pictures don't do it justice." I've tried and experienced a lot of things in dreams, but though I've been in space, I've never been on another world before. It really felt like I was on the moon, complete with lower gravity (affecting how we moved around) and the isolation that came with knowing you were the only civilization for hundreds of thousands of miles. I feel like I've come back from an amazing trip or something.
So long, Moon. I hardly knew ye. But I'll think back fondly on our time together, and maybe wave from time to time when I see you.
mood: one more astronaut music: Elton John, Rocketman (in my head) 4 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Wednesday, July 8th, 2009 |
11.05 - The Cars go Z̤̲̦̮͉͓̯̩̱̔̋ͭ̿̈́ͨ̀Ȧ̯͓̣̖̫̉ͧ͒̓̈́͊͞L̢͎͔̞̝̩̟ͯ͆̎̔̑̃͘G̐ͧ̓̔́͠҉̥̯̮̳̙͉̲̳O̬̞͓̥̾̔̓̇͗̏ͮͥͅ
I know tonight, he comes He's takin' my mind for fun He throttles my reason with unholy insights I know tonight, he comes He mangles my soul He does it with ease Sanity passes from me Just like a breeze He shows me the reason My mind is a blight Z͛ͫ̈́̂̿̇͗͜Ǎ̵̻ͣ͊͌̿͋̂Ĺ͖͖̫͇̠̙͕G̥ͮ̄̊̊͛̉̂͢O̺͎͓̻̊̊̓ͧ͐̚!͂͊̀
(know tonight, I know tonight) I know tonight (know tonight, I know tonight) I know tonight.
(know tonight, I know tonight) He comes
And I know he's gonna do it to me One more time (one more time) I know he's gonna stay implanted In my mind Why do I need to hang myself with my intestines? (with my intestines)
I know how his taint feels I taste all the hearts that he steals He enters my mind so easy And I know it's right Ž̸̶͇̦̱͍̝̣̭͎̳̲̝͎̣̜̜͍͈ͬͭ̎ͥ͑̀͞Ă̤͈̦̲͙̮̥͔̱̭̱͔̯̤͛̅̎ͪ̎̋̾́͐ͯ̑̅ͧ̾ͭ̕̕͟͢Lͪ͑̈́̌ͨ҉̛͏̩̗̝̳̺̼̹̜̣̠̫͚̘̼̘̳G̷̸͙̗̰̟͒͊̅̿ͮ̑ͪͥ͑͌͂̎̔͢ͅO̴͈͕̮̖͕̭͈͕̙̼̖̩̫͙͓̲ͣ̓̓̌̊ͅ!̴̾̑̒ͤ͌̃́ͧͮ̒͗̌ͮͫ̂̃ͤ̿͑͏̷̢̟͇͍̱̹̜̝͜ I know tonight he comes (I know tonight he comes) (know tonight, I know tonight) I know tonight (know tonight, I know tonight) I know tonight (know tonight, I know tonight) he comes (he comes)
I know tonight, oh yeah (know tonight, I know tonight).
(I know tonight) well I know tonight (know tonight, I know tonight).
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| Tuesday, July 7th, 2009 |
14.51 - I disbelieve!
10 Business Lessons I Learned from Playing Dungeons & Dragons (from /.)
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| Monday, June 29th, 2009 |
12.43 - Still alive!
I'm home from my surgery. Happy, Kate?
Man, typing one-handed when you're not used to it is a chore.
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06.47 - Under the knife
Wish me luck. The surgery to unpinch my ulnar nerve is at 9:40 this morning. Last night, I sent the writing samples for the job I interviewed for on Friday. Then I e-mailed my professor at Cornell to acknowledge that I will start work on the last class towards my degree as soon as I'm able. Target degree date is end of August.
While I'm gone, enjoy some sweet berry wine. You're gonna like it.
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| Sunday, June 28th, 2009 |
16.22 - RIP, Billy Mays. He's pitchin' 'em in Heaven, now.
From MeFi:
"Your 7:30 is here, Mr. Offer," said the voice over his headset.
After a pause, he responded. "Send him in."
A well-dressed man strutted into the office, adjusting his cufflinks as he surveyed the dark room. The only light in the room came from the large window occupying the entire outer wall. Behind the desk, there was a chair facing away from him, with a few spikes of hair rising over the back silhouetted against the window. The seated figure said nothing, and so he spoke into the twilit darkness. "It is done."
Still, the seated figure said nothing. But the hair spikes could be seen to move over the back of the chair, as if he were regarding something outside. Finally, the thick silence was broken. "And you made it look like an accident?"
"No one will suspect foul play. It will look like he had undiagnosed injuries from his flight yesterday. It will be as if the impact jarred loose a blood clot which found its way into his brain. To all eyes, it will be as if he just never woke up."
The spikes moved as if the listener had cocked his head and perked up his ears. "Sounds very professional."
"I know my craft."
"Do you?" At this, the chair swiveled and finally the well-dressed gentleman came to face his employer. The man leaned his chin into steepled fingers, elbows resting on the large blotter on his heavy desk. His eyes rose over his fingertips, up to catch those of the well-dressed man in their critical glare. But not for a second did the elegant man let his composure drop. Having appraised his employee's steely resolve, the seated figure swung his chair a quarter turn to the right, leaving his profile in silhouette, the row of spikes broken only by the band of the headset. "Ah, Billy, Billy, Billy... The CoS couldn't stop me, what made you think you could? And now look what you've done. All because you just. Couldn't. SHARE!" His left fist crashed down on the dark wood of the heavy desk. He trembled with a deep-seated rage for just a moment before remembering himself.
The room was once again draped in silence, though the sound of the impact seemed to reverberate still. Finally, he spoke again. "You've served me well. Go. Disappear for now. You will receive your payment in the usual fashion." Still facing the wall lined with tall bookshelves, the seated figure disdainfully waved his dismissal. The well-dressed gentleman straightened his tie, pinky extended, and turned on his heel to leave. After a carefully-timed pause, the seated figure stopped him by uttering, "One more thing." As the gentleman turned back, his face registered horror as the chair swiveled back to face him. He saw a hand rise to the side to the spiked head. There was no time to move as the hand slapped a button on the headset, releasing the giant set of blades from the ceiling. The horrified look remained frozen on the gentleman's face as he was chopped into several vertical segments. The floor swung open, dropping the chunks of flesh through a trap door below. The seated figure rose, having removed something from the center drawer of his desk. As the floor swung shut again, he draped the large cloth over the bloody spot on the carpet. He tamped it down with his foot, clucking his tongue all the while. "Tsk, tsk, tsk. Now there's your mildew." He flipped the cloth over, and started tamping down the other side on the spot. Already, fifty percent of the color was starting to come up....
mood: upcoming shamwow commercial music: and somewhere, Anthony Sullivan was sharpening his blades in readiness 2 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Thursday, June 18th, 2009 |
12.29 - LJTalk test
I'm testing LJTalk through Miranda. If you use LJTalk, feel free to add me.
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| Sunday, June 14th, 2009 |
23.45 - gear idea
I want a license plate frame that says:
"IF YOU CAN READ THIS
[PLATE#NO]
YOU'RE TOO CLOSE"
in Braille.
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| Saturday, June 13th, 2009 |
07.37 - Are you comfortable? It doesn't get any better than this.
Last night, I found a Liquid Television short that I'd been looking for for ages. Enjoy.
Of interest (especially to Joe) is the SCP Foundation. Perhaps the best entry to it is gained through the TVTropes Wiki page on it. It's a little haven of weird on the internet that's done right for a change. I'm seriously contemplating becoming a contributor there, because I have all these weird things living in my head that must be contained.
I think I have bronchitis. Hopefully, this will not interfere with my surgery next Wednesday. But at least I got my desired facebook name. Which I shall now proceed to never use, ever.
Now I'm off to enjoy a healthy breakfast of Nietzsche Pops: Die Überbreakfast.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40K2S0-5Xo0 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=69R_Uf57R0U
mood: full of the will to power music: The Sugarcubes, Altered Images, not necessarily in that order 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Tuesday, June 9th, 2009 |
21.22
Unemployment is my anti-drug.
Note to future employers: j/k!
Note to future self: Record groundbreaking nerdcore hiphop album called Paid in lulz.
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| Friday, June 5th, 2009 |
12.42 - Sourced
"If I knew it was going to be that kind of party..."
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08.11 - MobilePost: The Death of Moments
I wonder if our mortality liberates us in a sense. As I deal with my own perfectionism, I struggle with learning to accept mistakes every day. Something Picard said in "The Bonding" made me think how intolerable things like mistakes, loss, and failures must be to someone not only forever condemned to remember them, but forever to experience them anew. Individual mistakes are weighty enough; who could bear more than a lifetime's?
In other news, on Monday I will schedule the surgery to unpinch my ulnar nerve. I will wait til after my birthday for the actual procedure. My arm will be in a sling for 10 days, and I won't be able to lift more than 5 lbs. with the arm for ~6 weeks. They are going to actually move the muscle over the nerve so it needs time to heal. Yikes, detaching and reattaching muscle.
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| Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009 |
01.21 - Let there be LIGHT!
I now have light in my garage. When my halogen light burned out its third bulb in a year, milktree suggested I get some cheap fluorescent fixtures from Home Depot. So I did. With a little help from Becca, I got them mounted in my garage and now I don't have to rage, rage against the dying of the light when working on my vehicles. Yep, I can do maintenance after dark.
[00:45] Eideteker is watching Cocoon [00:45] Eideteker: for the Wilford Brimley, mainly [00:45] trondant: did Wilford Brimley have teh diabeetus back then? [00:45] Eideteker: He has always had the diabeetus [00:46] Eideteker: He is one with the force of diabeetus in the universe
mood: OH NO YOU KILED ME music: road cloased 10 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Saturday, May 30th, 2009 |
09.59
[09:29] Eideteker: http://www.qwantz.com/archive/000778.html [09:29] Eideteker: That's me in the morning [09:29] Eideteker: > get up [09:29] Eideteker: I don't see 'up' here [09:29] Eideteker: > get out of bed [09:29] Eideteker: I don't see any 'out' here [09:30] Eideteker: > go s [09:30] Eideteker: I don't know how to do that [09:30] Eideteker: > move south [09:30] Eideteker: You can't go south, you're still in bed. [09:30] Eideteker: > give up [09:30] Eideteker: Give 'up' to whom?
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| Thursday, May 28th, 2009 |
22.19 - Doing the Stuck
As a writer, I'm continually looking for story ideas. I was reading about time travel again this morning, and I thought of my current situation as sort of a twisted version of Groundhog Day. And maybe that Jet Lee movie about being The One. Part of the issue is that current me is fighting becoming future me because that means he won't exist anymore. And part of it is fear of the open-ended future.
So our hero finds himself trapped in a causal loop. And, at first, he seems unable to escape it. Soon, he's got things damn near memorized. And it becomes a desperate struggle for him to keep the status quo, because he has no clue what lies beyond his infinitely recurring comfort zone. Because I think if I were in Groundhog Day, that's what I'd end up doing. The stuff where Bill Murray realizes he can get away with anything, because it'll all just reset tomorrow anyway. Until something our hero does threatens to break the spell and then he confronts true horror: the unknown.
It's not a direct parallel, but I've wormed my way into this awkward kind of stasis. I've been working on my degree for about a third of my life. And moving forward can be scary, because making decisions feels like it closes more doors than it opens sometimes. But those doors are closing all the time anyway; anything else is just a delusion...
mood: keyser sowhat music: Pantera - We'll Grind That Axe for a Long Time 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Saturday, May 23rd, 2009 |
12.02 - Back in NYC, uh-huh
Last night, the roads were surprising devoid of holiday traffic. Or speed traps. As such, we were able to make it from Boston to NYC in about 3 hours. Becca has gotten much better at her roadcraft, including filling up the gas tank (but not the tires, sadly) before leaving. I had dinner waiting for us when she got home for work (don't have a heart attack; I ordered delivery). We didn't even stop for a bathroom break. As such, we made Good Time.
So I'm in the strange position of staying in my grandmother's apartment while she's out of town for the holiday. We get to use her garage spot and everything. It's triple sweet. I may not have the very best grandmother, but she's way up there.
Later today, I'm going to a picnic in Central Park with some friends (barring rain?). Becca's expressed interest in exploring Coney Island. I both called and texted my brother re: brunch tomorrow morning, and I called my mom about hanging out with her and her church pals tomorrow. And, much like last night's alternate universe highway where it was not Memorial Day, today I'm in an alternate universe where no one's answering their phones. So I'm just going to wait for plans to gel on their own, while being laid back and having fun doing whatever I'm doing. Hey people, I was proactive! It's in your court.
mood: KING O FROD music: Genesis - Back in NYC [mouth|ears]
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| Sunday, May 17th, 2009 |
19.42 - I'm home!
I'm back from the Spring Fling. Things to remember:
+ "You're my sponsor." + Black Ice + White Black Ice + The BEST possible way + Cranes... CRAAAAAAANES + Happy birthday, Scott + They still make Funyuns + Saw my first wild bear + TraAaAAiiIiins... TRAAAAAAAAINS + Turn Right if Moose, Left if Squirrel + All that has to happen for evil to win is for Demi to just sit there, smirking. + "I'm still glowing!" + Behold, the Priest of the Future. My electronic ears can forgive sins at five hundred times mortal speed! + Behold, the Neon Hasidim with the electric payos. The Jew of the Future! + GrAAaaAAAiiIInns... GRAAAAAAIIIIINNNNSSSSS
In fewer than thirty years, I feel like I've had three lifetimes' worth of truly great friends. Aren't folks who just 'get' you supposed to be few and far between?
Blacula is on. I am reminded of the Six-Word Stories we did on MeFi a while back. "The King of Cartoons wants blood." I should go as Jefferson Twilight for Halloween one year.
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| Monday, May 11th, 2009 |
15.12 - Personal Reference
Has anyone put me down as a personal reference recently? I keep getting these automated calls telling me to call a number back, but with no other info.
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| Tuesday, May 5th, 2009 |
04.47 - Mad night musings
I wonder if anyone has a tattoo that says "ON THA R." Props for unicode supported tatts that use ℝ.
I'm dealing with insomnia again. Pilotwings 64 seems to be losing its ability to relax me to sleep. The birdman free flight is still fun, though. I have insurance adjusters coming to look at the bike first thing in the morning (i.e., before 9am). It's fun to see what dreams can reveal to us. I spent several minutes in a dream trying to get my schedule straight with Becca. She's going away this weekend (Mother's Day) and I'm going away next weekend, then we have Memorial Day in NYC and my birthday in Vermont. It wasn't quite a lucid dream, but it was definitely productive. It's kind of funny; once you've been doing lucid dreaming for a bit, the whole OMG I AM LUCID OH WAIT NEVERMIND thing wears off. Then it just becomes "ok, shit is weird, probably dreaming, what can I get done?" and you forget about the whole HEY I CAN FLY and whatnot that usually ends up costing you your lucidity.
There's finally news on the Cornell front. I'm still looking to petition for my degree, but if the petition fails, I've got them to agree to letting me finish one incomplete before I am DONE. Graduated. Free. So after I have this insurance and accident stuff out of the way today, I'm going to set to work on that. Once I have my actual degree, I may be able to find a real job again. Whee.
I watched that Family Guy "Bird is the Word" episode like 4 times yesterday. Just the first half. It's fun watching someone else run something into the ground. Made me think how I have certain give-and-take with a few peeps. wimpdork and I have "Are you threatening me?" and "Do what now?" blackacre and I do Surfin Bird back and forth. And baka and I kit-bash old and busted memes into horrifying new states of unlife. Yes, we're still doing "All Your Base Are Belong to Us". Can't argue with the classics. But you can repeat them until they've lost all meaning, melting like some sick parody of a Dali painting. The Persistence of Clever, maybe? I JUST TOOK YOUR JOKE AND WENT POMO WITH IT. DECONSTRUCTIONIST, BABY, WHAT? DON'T BE POMOPHOBIC.
Ok, now I'm just making stuff up. HOW POSTMDOERN, EH? IYKWIMAITYDN!
PS: Solaris. Yum.
mood: mr. t ate my balls music: Seasons don't fear the metanarrative. Nor do the wind or the sun or Derrida. 4 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Friday, May 1st, 2009 |
18.08 - Everything gets married.
I want this played at my bachelor party.
"You know what? It doesn't matter, because I love you so much that it's time for you to go to sleep."
"What? Are you kidding?! They're my best friends! That's why I married you, so I wouldn't have them anymore."
I've also said to Becca that I think my bachelor party should consist of a bunch of us dudes sitting around and watching John Carpenter movies. There are a bunch I haven't seen with vinz_klortho, and he's probably the best person to watch them with.
mood: kickin' it music: where'd you learn to talk like that? 1 voice - [mouth|ears]
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16.56 - It's a dirt bike. It doesn't *have* a shiny side.
I hate doing these, but I figure I need to let people know. I had a motorcycle accident on the way home from MotoMarket last night. A young girl put on the brakes hard, moved to the extreme left of the lane, then made an unsignaled right turn directly into me. Bike needs work but is not totaled. I'm not totaled either, but am wicked sore. I got x-rays and nothing's broken.
Yeah, I know everyone gets freaked out when these things happen. Bikes are dangerous. Whatev. My gear did its job and I walked away. I'll be riding as soon as the bike is fixed. Sadly, I'll probably miss this year's Spring Fling and Wrenching 101.
If anyone wishes to send me topless get well pix, please do. Guys, just make sure to shave your chest first. Chest hair actually impedes my healing process, even more than exposed nipples help it.
mood: you are what you wear music: wear well 32 voices - [mouth|ears]
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| Friday, April 24th, 2009 |
10.06 - DS3: A Coda
This post will probably not make sense to anyone. It stars my character Nicodemus "Adeem" Jheter from "Deep Space 3," which was a PBEM (play by e-mail) RPG (role-playing game) set in the Star Trek Universe (concurrent with Deep Space 9 for continuity nerds) that I joined when I was in high school. Basically, you wrote a little bit of the story, sent it to the list, and the characters you'd interacted with in your bit replied with their own narrative, advancing the plot incrementally (in theory). It was sort of like a collaborative novel, but multiplexed, with many authors often contributing simultaneously (at least, when the list was at its busiest). Don't ask me why, but I suddenly woke up between 2 and 3 AM thinking about this story so it probably won't be as coherent as I'd like. I've tried to provide as much exposition as possible within the frame of the story. I've also provided links where I thought additional context would be helpful. This story is somewhat in the vein of the JLU episode Epilogue in that it's a revisit, with some sense of closure.
THINGS YOU SHOULD PROBABLY KNOW: Keara Malko was Adeem's best girl. She was good friends with J'lanna Sarah Uhura Jo (I think that was her full name), who owned a bar on the station. Jo (a Betazed, if you're keeping score; you know how wild they are!) had recently had a kid at the time when I joined the game. Adeem wears a suped up Breen exosuit (suped up as in he added some cybernetics and controls for his ship and transporter). He is never without the suit, and rarely seen to remove his helmet (except in this story obviously! oh ho ho!) for security, safety, and privacy reasons. Some time between when I left the game and now, the Breen joined the Dominion in war against the Federation, so it's safe to assume that Adeem (who appears to be Breen) was not welcome in Federation space. He runs a small ship (barely room for him and his client), so it's understandable that a lady would be less than enthusiastic about living with him on it. But it's the only home he's ever known. And while he was a coyote by trade, his real mission was the search for personal warp travel. Like, without a ship. And oh ho ho isn't this getting all nerdy and whatnot and really it's just a few steps down from fanfic at this point. BAD FANFIC. Blame my mother for making me a Trekkie. I PROBABLY LEFT STUFF OUT BUT I GUESS NO ONE'S FORCING YOU TO READ IT AND YOU'RE PROBABLY NOT READING IT AT THIS POINT SO HEY HOW ABOUT THOSE METS.
If you were on DS3 and happen to find this, perhaps in some random google search, drop me a line. You can always post a comment, I don't mind!
Nicodemus Jheter was much older than he ever thought he'd be. The life of a coyote has its risks. Sometimes he'd wondered if it weren't the quest that kept him alive, for its own ends. He'd been to the fourth spatial dimension at the request of the entity known only as the Time Being. One does not forget being the "Chosen One" to an entire race, even if one still does not believe it. Either way, Adeem was not unfamiliar with being the pawn of forces larger than himself.
His quest had taken him farther afield than most humans had ever seen, let alone been. He'd been to the worlds of the ancient Iconians, and spoken to the being known only as the Traveler. Oh, and that whole fourth dimension thing. And yet, here he was, back on the Federation outpost Deep Space Three. It hardly seemed like any time at all had passed since he first set foot on the station, a fresh-faced youth in command of his own ship and barely out of his teens. You can't step in the same river twice, though, and much had changed. This place had been Jo's Star Bar and Holosuite Emporium, but that was several owners ago. Jo was still around, but rumor had it that having a child had changed her outlook a bit. Probably figured a bar wasn't the best environment to raise a kid. Some time between now and when Jo'd left, the dabo tables had gone, too. Still, and perhaps from nostalgia more than sense, Adeem felt comfortable enough to leave the helmet of his stolen Breen exosuit sitting on the table between himself and his guest.
"I don't remember much about the actual passenger himself. My mother tried to keep me out of sight during missions, because she never knew just who she'd be transporting. But I'm sure his secret was what cost her her life. Moreso than the ship and the trade she left me, it was my inheritance. I owed it to her to see her through.
"The Iconians could travel anywhere in the galaxy, and perhaps beyond, through the use of their gateways. But as they'd developed around their gateway technology, they were stranded without access to one. There were rumors, though, that some had learned to travel like the Iconians, but without the need for gateways. In my travels, I came across classified Starfleet information regarding an individual known as the Traveler. He'd apparently taken their flagship Enterprise over a billion light-years in an instant. But he still needed a ship with a warp reactor, a device, to shape the power of his mind. I was able to learn quite a bit from him, though.
"In his conception, spacetime and conscious thought were entangled. Through the language of mathematics, he was able to, I dunno, will the Enterprise's warp reactor to carry them across fantastic distances. But he provided me the key to the mystery. You see, he explained to me that consciousness is really our interface with the universe. The old dualists had it wrong; mind and matter were not separate. Indeed, they're integral in ways most people never dream. Consciousness is the membrane where they intersect, like the flat surface between two round soap bubbles. Our universe is not one or the other, but rather is composed of the interaction between the two. Of the old philosophers, it was actually Kant who was closest. Space and time are the goggles through which we view the universe, and they cannot be removed. We've learned to bend space and time, and there are any number of ways to warp our minds. But it's the synthesis of the two disciplines that allows one to travel anywhere in space without a vessel. Theoretically, it should be no more difficult to travel likewise through time, though I've had no such luck. I think it may have to do with the fact that we can view space omnidirectionally but time seems to move in only one direction."
"Time's Arrow?"
"Exactly. It's much harder for us to conceptualize time due to this constraint. But space? Space is our oyster once we understand just how our perception affects it. It starts with awareness, and presence. The reason it's so hard for us to get from here to there is that so few of us understand where "here" is. I mean truly understand. Even once I'd come to sort of understand things after my discussions with the Traveler, it took me years of meditation practice. But now—maybe it's best to show you. Close your eyes. Now open them."
Overhead was sky, and stars. They were still seated at table, and the helmet was still in the same place. But it was a different table. Under different stars. "Like it? We're seated outside at a café in the village in Ireland where my mother was born. On Earth. Terra." Adeem smiled.
The younger fellow blinked unbelieving. "This is a trick or something. Have we really been on a holodeck all this time?"
Adeem was suddenly serious. "No. In the strictest sense, no. But in another sense, all the universe is a holodeck, 'and all the men and women merely players.' The matter is arranged by the collective computer of humanoid consciousness rather than by a box of isolinear chips. We are really here, on Earth, as surely as if we'd gotten onboard a starship and travelled here over the course of days and weeks. There is no difference. Any interaction you have with the people here will really happen to them, and sensors will record your presence. What you see around you is not an illusion, nor are you an illusion to it."
"But what you've just told me is impossible."
"Son, how can you know what's impossible unless you know fully what is possible? History is the record of successively impossible things happening. You can't be unprepared for this. Surely your mother told you—"
"She told me a lot of things, thank you very much. I never believed the half of them. I'm the only proof I ever had that you even existed before now."
Adeem was stung. "True, true. I'm sorry, but my mother—your grandmother—died for just a piece of this knowledge. She raised me, all on her own, same as your mother did. I owed her just as much as you owed your mother to show up today and meet me. I knew your mother, so I can imagine that you and she shared a similar connection to the one I shared with your grandmother. So I'm confident that even if you don't understand now, you will, at some point. But please understand; I never knew my father. If I'd known about you, or even thought—"
"But you didn't think, did you?"
"That's not fair. In my line of work, one doesn't have much chance to stick one's head above the surface without fear of losing it. I offered to bring Keara with me, but she declined. I would've... huh. I suppose that's why she never told me. She knew how important this was to my mother, and how important my mother was to me. She knew I'd never be able to leave you behind."
"Seems she was looking out for us both, eh?" the young man said sarcastically.
"I don't know what else to say. I'm here, with you, in the land of our ancestors. I don't know what I was hoping for. But I'm offering you your—our birthright. And unless I miss my guess, we're all either of us has right now. I mean, I'm still learning this stuff myself, but I'd like the chance to teach you. We're talking about a chance to change all of humanity, the whole galaxy, even the universe; and I'm willing to gamble that there's enough of me in you that whatever you think of me right now that that's a pretty interesting prospect. What do you say?"
Adeem recognized the flash of green in his son's eyes, just as in his mother's and his own. With a hint of a smile, he replied. "Dunno. Sounds like it could be fun. But let's not make any assumptions here. I'm not just going to hug you teary-eyed and call you dad and all that. I'm interested in being your student first and foremost."
"Yeah, I figured you'd say that. So, DS3... then the universe?"
"Sounds good."
mood: i seem not to have any space-y icons music: Genesis 3 voices - [mouth|ears]
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06.04 - I'm on IRC while writing an entry in another window
But this one is for posteriority:
(05:57:55am) (jonathanstrange) now what am I going to do for dinner? (05:58:44am) (@Nucleo) I suggest ordering in. (05:58:46am) (@Nucleo) although here, it would be brekkie (05:59:06am) (jonathanstrange) Ordering in sounds like a go-er. (06:01:18am) (@Eideteker) oh man (06:01:33am) (@Eideteker) I would love someone to deliver French toast with sausage to me (06:01:36am) (@Eideteker) piping hot (06:02:14am) (jonathanstrange) or bacon (06:02:22am) (jonathanstrange) french toast with maple syrup and bacon (06:02:34am) (@Eideteker) Eh, I can get bacon anytime (06:02:45am) (@Eideteker) I just order from Bacon Cannon (06:03:01am) (@Eideteker) "Bacon at the speed of sound!" (06:03:19am) (@chrismear) That sounds awesome. (06:03:28am) (@Eideteker) It was fun when they first rolled out. Hadn't quite worked out all the kinks (06:03:28am) (@Nucleo) yes on the bacon (06:03:30am) (@Nucleo) kthx (06:03:38am) (@Eideteker) So sometimes they'd, well, miss (06:03:47am) (jonathanstrange) bacon cannon?? (06:03:49am) (@Eideteker) And you'd be walking along and suddenly, random bacon (06:03:58am) (@Eideteker) SKYBACON (06:04:06am) (jonathanstrange) that sounds AWESOME (06:04:42am) (@Nucleo) that's like that cloudy with a chance of meatballs (06:04:50am) (@Nucleo) but it would be cloudy with a chance of BACON (06:04:55am) (@Nucleo) which would indeed be an improvement.
mood: only one weapon: bacon cannon 1 voice - [mouth|ears]
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